anxiety, awareness, health, mental health

World mental health awareness day. My stories.

You see this photo, this photo means so many things to me but the one that sticks out most is how far I have come, you see when my marriage to Edwardo ended, like many today admitting this, I tried to end my life and it’s not something that I have openly told my children… Continue reading World mental health awareness day. My stories.

family, love, Uncategorized

The pin in the universe of life.

Do you ever live your life and think is that you? I see my life and sometimes when I'm out in the garden I look into our room and see what I've built the last few years and think how the fuck did I get here? Did I really want to be here? Is this… Continue reading The pin in the universe of life.

awareness, daily life, health, mental health, Wedding

I do and I don’t love my perfect life….

I am not one of these strong women who hide their problems from their partner, family or the world, quite frankly I don’t know what good comes from hiding problems, whether it be financially, emotionally or just plain right ‘meh’, I am not one of these bloggers that plasters a fake smile over her face… Continue reading I do and I don’t love my perfect life….

awareness, family, health, mental health

Sunshine and rainbows, not dark clouds and puddles.

I love my life, I really do but if this is what life is for the rest of my days I'd sooner not be here to be totally honest with you, I'm a trooper though and I'll carry on but in the pit of my stomach there is this overwhelming feeling of 'fuck it', it's… Continue reading Sunshine and rainbows, not dark clouds and puddles.

family, mental health

Mums without their children

There is a massive stigma when it comes to mums that 'choose' to live away from their offspring and I have had funny looks and questions asking me why and normally when I explain the situation almost everyone understands but I can still see the look on their faces as if to say I was or am a bad mother.

adventure, daily life, family, health, walking

The kipper that changed everything.

There seems to be a pivotal moment in everyone’s life that makes you sit up and go ‘oh shit, well ok then’ and I had that moment today, you see I am due an operation next Friday and had my pre-assessment today and I had what resembled a wet kipper slapped across my face when… Continue reading The kipper that changed everything.

daily life, geek, love, Money

Turn left

Fortune Teller: You turned left. But what if you turned right? What then? Donna: Let go of my hands. Fortune Teller: What if it changes? What if you go right? What if you could still go right? Donna: Stop it! What’s on my back? What is it? What’s on my back?! Fortune Teller: Make the… Continue reading Turn left

friends, love

I wish two lives could collide

Here I am sat in my bathroom just having looked back at 'my memories' on Facebook and reminded of some questions I posed the kids back in 2015 and like a hammer punch to the chest, it hits me that I miss them, their sweet answers of how beautiful I am etc is making me… Continue reading I wish two lives could collide

daily life, love, mental health

It’s good to talk

Everyday begins with an act of courage and hope: getting out of bed. Mason Cooley Mental health awareness week is here and it's crazy to think we have a week that is dedicated to mental health but as suicide is on the rise it's brilliant that something like this can be brought to the forefront… Continue reading It’s good to talk

love

He’s just not that into you.

How do you deal with a marriage break up anyway? Do you walk away with head held high or do you scream and shout, fall into deep depression and never want to be hurt again? Yep, I did that one. Initially when my marriage ended to Edwardo, it was just 'ok that's it then', we… Continue reading He’s just not that into you.