“Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin’ of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you”
Almost one year ago I lost my best friend, a year ago today I saw her for the last time and I wish I knew it was going to be the last time I saw her because I would have held on that little bit tighter and probably never have let go.
I only knew her for just over a year and when I first met her, I admit I hated her but within two days she was a firm friend and like I knew her for years. Sometimes though a person doesn’t need to be in your life long to make a big impact and that she did, she was a beautiful soul inside and out, she was the warmest, funniest human being I had ever met, she looked like a charity shop threw up on her and it looked like her hair needed a good brush but my god she was my best friend and I miss her so much.
I will never forget the phone call to say she had passed, it was like my life stopped and I didn’t know how to function, I was half expecting it but I still didn’t want it to be true.
How do you get over losing someone in your life? Time, lots of it and talking about that person and for me including her in special occasions, like my wedding; she wasn’t there like I wanted her to be but she so was in spirit, we always have a drink for her, no matter where we are on the table and that day was no exception and a friend had brought us a Fox for our wedding as that was her surname so all evening, becky was with us, joining in and I felt happy that I still included her in someway.
So as it approaches the day she left this world, I find myself getting teary and thinking of her more often than I do usually, sometimes I feel guilty that I get sad the way I do as she would have hated that but also because I wasn’t a
part of her life long.
So Becky, wherever you are, I miss you but I hope you are free from all the things that was upsetting you and making you feel like you couldn’t be here with us any longer, you are and always will be a star, my star.